I am not sure why I feel the way i do today. I noticed myself contemplating suicide again today noticing that my life is meaningless and pointless and I know that makes me weak but I am not sure what to do about it. I asked a friend for help but she had to sleep so I told her I would be ok. I notice myself spiraling out of control without a purpose. What is my life? A basic pay at a fast food restaurant so some bitch that's high can fill his tummy with fat cells until he pops. I am not sure I want to be on this earth anymore. Maybe I am just not in the spot I thought I would be in at this point in my life. I have no lover, no plan and I am in an endless pit of nothingness. Maybe I do have a purpose, I just don't know it yet or have been shown the way. Though, I am not sure the way i am headed is the right one but it is the only one in sight.
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