March 4, 2014

Maybe I don't have a specific person out there for me. Maybe some people are just ment to wonder around without their mate or maybe their mate has already passed away. If you think about it, it makes sense. Death happens alot in this world and maybe people that don't have someone are just too late. I thought I found my someone. But that someone happened twice. Never a good ending. Luckily, I don't have to do anything about it. Karma kicked her ass and made her suffer. Her grandmother, who was close to the family, passed away. Ya know, I thought I was fucked up but who fucking laughs when you're breaking up with someone. I hope she gets in a car crash and fucking looses control of her legs. One can only wish, right? I mean, she is the first I had sex with and the first girl I kissed. She has gained a pot of weight lately. Maybe she will just explode. Who cares. Another thing that's been bothering me is, the more negative I feel about someone, the more worse things happen to them. For example, I hated this man. He was a drunk and he was abusive. Me and him got into a fist fight and I called the cops. He was banned from the house. Keep in mind, he is my friends stepfather. About 3 months after that fight, he got a blood clot in his leg and fell into a coma. He eventually died because his heart gave out. Another time, I noticed a white pregnant girl dating a black man. In my mind, they should not reproduce. Yes, have sex but don't reproduce. So, I said to myself, he should leave her. Well guess what happened, he got hit by a car. Died instantly. I also held resentment to a friend of mine. Anytime I feel angry towards him, bad things happen in his life. He got addicted to drugs and kicked out of his parents. I really don't know. But like, I should just start loving people. And for you people reading this, love me back or I may kill you. Another thing is this psychic thing I got going on. Like, I'll smell like wood burning, This happened last night, and I see there is a horrible explosion in New Jersey. I always feel something behind me and I see it move, and sometimes I feel like something is gonna happen. Funny thing, it always does. Something always happens...