I gotta say, after I get my nervous breakdown which happens once a week, I feel numb to everything. Like completely different. Not a care in the world about anything. I wish I could feel like that more often because it helps me be a better worker and everything. Today, I couldn't sleep because I ordered my new cell phone. The Samsung Galaxy S5 Sport. I'm actually waiting outside for it now, even though it probably wont be here for a long time. I don't care. I got all day. I haven't been able to sleep, or drink anything. I should probably shower too but what if the package comes while im in the shower and I can't get it? I'd be fucked. I better just stay right here. Besides, I don't work too late tonight so I'll be ok. I wonder if UPS has like a special GPS that labels all their stops by like town. I hope it comes soon because my current phone cannot charge anymore and it is only on like 5% right now. I have the processer down very low and everything is on power save mode. So, lets hope UPS gets here quick so I can finally relax. I made Christina Jealous of Gemma yesterday. She wouldn't even answer my phone call this morning. She told me that she wants me to only want her and thats it, no one else. Either she is very controling over this relationship we dont have or she is very very attatched to me. Lets hope she is just attatched. I am kinda attatched to her so, I see where she is coming from. Even though I keep convincing myself to not feel any pain from her, it is working too, I can't help but wonder what a relationship with her would be like, even though I really like her as a friend. I think I would miss her as a friend and if things didnt work out, I dont think we would have that friendship anymore. Even though I love her, I will stick to friendship I think. Well, I think thats enough blabbing for now.
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